becoming immortal (1)

if you ask me, "what would you want to be in the future?" i would probably answer nothing. i would probably say that everything, including future, is uncertain. the only certain thing about the world is uncertainity. such as, etc. but last night, when i was sipping a cup of coffee in the middle of isomania, i had a line of thought. i remembered that when i was young, very young, there was the only thing i've wanted to be. until now, in my deep unconciousness, this desire still remains.

it was the first and foremost desire of my life. throughout my life, from younger to this day, i wanted to be a superstar, a writer, a politian, a poet, a programmer, even an architect. these desires appeared after an idea, I WANT TO BE AN IMMORTAL !

think i'm nuts, eh? well, it was sort of crazy idea but i'm sure that this was the only reason of my existence. i wanted to be an immortal, i wanted to live forever. this desire appeared in early years of my life. from the day that idea started in my mind, i searched for the ways to be an immortal. religions after religions, they could not give any definite and possible way to be an immortal.

early Buddhism has a way to be an immortal. i'm not talking about Nivanna. in early Buddhism, or maybe we call Hinduism? people can medidate and control their minds to be an immortal. also in Myanmar, there are many immortal stories such as Zaw Jyi, Bo Bo Aung, etc. i interested in these stories and researched for some logical facts. but unfortunately, the more i researched, the more unlogical things i saw in religions. does our mind control my soul? is there any soul in my body? how do you prove that soul exists? is there really immortals?

after reading books after books and thinking thoughts after thoughts, i've unknowingly became an atheist and a rationalist. well, a little bit nihilist. i've finally figured out that such thing as immortal soul doesn't exist and i'm not even sure whether i do exist or not. but last night, (as i've said before) while i was sipping a cup of coffee, i had an idea. the idea of how to become an immortal and what really is immortal...

to be continued....

grand opening

well... this post is just a test.

i'll try my best to share my knowledge and feelings. i've alread had a blog in myanmar version. for friends who can't read burmese, i made this blog. :)

the title says it all. HOLY BLADE, religious philosophy and religious blasphemy. i love religions but i can't accept religions. in this blog, you'll see most of my religious views and thoughts. the title is named opposite of the HOLY GRAIL or HOLY CHALICE. the opposite of GRAIL is BLADE, which represents the male. so... i named my blog HOLY BALDE, the blasphemy of the HOLY GRAIL. :P

first, don't misunderstand me that i'm insulting Christianity or some other religions. i love blasphemies and this is just another blasphemy that i've done in my life. so.. don't get me wrong.

second, my english is bad and this blog contains a lot of grammar mistakes and spellings. please be patient and read well. :D